This is the reason why I've been smiling throughout. I'm trying so hard to smile everyday & night. But, it's always fail me to smile during the nights. Once i tucked into my blanket, i tends to think, tends to regret & I'll start crying all over again.

You bought me balloons to cheer me up, you walked me to this open space ; holding my hand telling me that you'll never let me go. End up, we decided to leave each other. Because, we wanna do well in our studies. If i really made the right choice, why aren't i feeling happy? I know that there's people feeling happy because of the break ups. Feel happy for us, because we're not suitable for each other. But, why aren't i feeling happy? I'm no longer smiling, laughing & complaining anymore. I'm leading into a world of darkness, without colours in my life. I don't know. But, i really want you back ): But, there's only 0.0000000000001 chance of us getting back ): Really hope that your feelings didn't fade.




Took this picture at Tanya's blog. It's nice isn't it (: Anyways, today was late for lesson. late for 15 mins. But, when i reached classroom, teacher haven't start lesson yet. So, I'm not really late. LOL. 4 hours of practical is killing): I'm freezing inside the computer lab & it's raining heavy outside at around 9 in the morning. After 3 hours of practical, had 2 long hours of break. That's worse too. Had lunch, than slacked all the way till 1pm. Had 3 hours of dmt practical than another 3 hours of dmt theory. End up, mr yar had half an hour practical with us than 1 and a half of theory with us. School end at 3pm instead of 6(: Bus-ed down to amk with sweefong than train-ed to yishun. Went over to damien's house. Had lunch, watched tv, do project, watched tv again than fall asleep. LOL. After that, had dinner(: After dinner, i took 3 small bars of chocolates, 3 small hamburger sweets , 3 small mashmellow , 1 banana & 1 can of sasi for myself(: Than packed dinner back home. LOL. I know i eat a lot. Reached home at 9.15 & everyone's waiting for my dinner. Bathe than went online. Don't know why, i'm missing yx now. sighs. Joleen oh Joleen. You've better stop your nonsense now before something happen again. Hopefully faithful friend calls tonight(: Anyways, no school tomorrow & i'm working. double yay :) I wanna make myself busy so that i can try my best to forget you. Till here. Take care readers(:
is this what you really want