post-ING my blog again. hmms. I'm BORED at home & I'm thinking back again=( for goodness sake ! I'm like being so damn freaking EMO this few days la. Yixuan called. talked & sing through out the whole conversation. he hung up cause, he need to do things. than, Amos called. he told me things & can really make me sad. hung up the phone cause, his grandmother. not long after, Yixuan called again. & we keep singing non-stop la. LOL. at around 9plus in the night, Yixuan tired already than asked him go sleep. poor boy. mum came back with dinner. but, i didn't took it. blah blah blah. went online & chat with people. sweetie wasn't online at first. & i missed her badly. but, she did online. YAY ! messaged lala. asked lala somethings & lala told me not to ask that question anymore. *sigh* I'm SAD la. don't you know that?! lala asked if I'm going to church this coming sunday. what does this prove?! lala doesn't want to see me or what? i don't know. *sigh* I think, I've been like losing weight AGAIN. haven't been eating since the day what lala told me. haven't been sleeping well this few days & I've been crying everyday & night ever since what lala told me=( WHY ! I'm asking myself WHY ! WHY things turned out to be like that?! I've been neglecting my sweetie this few days & making sweetie worry. *sigh* i just want to DIE now=( everything is so sucks now. WHY ! can someone please tell me WHY ! i think, now even JELLYBEANS also can't cheer me up. i think, only lala can cheer me up. but, lala everytime make me CRY=( WHY ! GOODNESS ! JOLEEN CHEW ! what are you DOING NOW ! WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING ! I HATE MYSELF. tomorrow, no school. & who want to ask me out. i want to go out BADLY ! i just want to DIE=(
IHATEMYSELF. YOUBROKEMYHEART=(