posting my blog early today. let's starts from yesterday. yesterday night, talked to [[him]] on the phone again. *sigh* thought that things would be turning out great or maybe some improvement. but, things turned out even more worst=( didn't sleep well for the last 2 nights. slept at 4plus and woke up at 8AM for the last 2 days. =( i am lacking of sleeps! *sigh* when about to hung up the phone with [[him]], i cried again. *sigh* after that, messaged vincent if he can called me to cheer me up. talked to vincent, he super shocked that i cried. hahahahas! he keep cheering me up no matter what. talked to him till 2AM last night. can't sleep. *sigh* today, woke up at 8AM. see if [[he]] got messaged me or not. waited and waited and waited. end up, i can't take it anymore. messaged [[him]] but, what i got in return?! [[he]] didn't replied. oh well. it's GOD's plan. met up with precious at mrt station. went to school with her. blah blah blah. messaged dearest and asked if she can meet us at the bus stop. it's in front of our school. saw dearest. she asked me if i am okay or not. i replied her, what do you think? i guess she knows bahs. went for lesson. those malay girls stared at me and asked" JOLEEN! why your eyes like that?! what happen?!" i told them" huh?! nothing arhs. hahahahas!(:" *sigh* am i really that happy? on the computer, stared at the screen and did nothing. Jesper and Marcus came late to school today. i cried in school. listened to my sister's mp3. *sigh* today, precious and mine mood were the lowest. precious just tired. i am SAD. SUPER SAD=( oh well. i think ren knows what happen bahs. cause, can see through my eyes. Jesper asked" how come Joleen like that?! how come never go crazy today?" i kept quiet. ren told Jesper" i think that [[guy]] broke off with her." guess what Jesper said? he said, " CANNOT BE LARHS! THE TWO OF THEM SO LOVELY!" *sigh* i start crying again. Marcus trying to make me laugh but i think he failed. after that, went for my recess. didn't eat anything at all. not in the mood for any nice food. blah blah blah. went to wong's lesson. Marcus out of the sudden said" JOLEEN! don't cry larhs! you cry, [[he]] more happy lehs!" walou! my tears BURSTED out like nobody's business! Marcus got shocked and keep saying sorry to me. hahahahas! everything ended. holiday starts today. don't really like holidays now. till here! GOOD NIGHT and GOD BLESS(:

boy, i am trying to be my very best in front of you.
i am putting my "smile and laughter" in front of you.
you know that i needed you the most.
i shall give you time to think.
but, can you promise me that you will be back mine again?
you can't give me the answer.
but, i'm waiting=)