decided to post 2ND blog. too bored already. woke up at 8AM. called alot people to talk too. end up, called sarah. told her what happen. once again, cried on the phone while talking to her. messaged [[him]] asked if really there's no more chance for us to be together again. [[he]] replied," i don't know. but, i still got feelings for you." boy, since you still got feelings for me. why can't we get back?! *sigh* have been crying for him since last night till now. my tears can't stop rowing down from my eyes. i just can't stop crying for [[him]] i don't know why. after hung up the phone with sarah, went to play my guitar. while playing, i cried again. =(( keep crying while i played my guitar. after that, stop already. messaged clara. told her everything. she is nice(: she decided to met up with me. accompany me for the whole day(: went causeway point to watch movie." Stomp of the Yard" NICE SHOW! 3.5 out of 5? reached causeway point, guess who i saw?! THOMAS and ICE! no way man! i LOVE them(: missed them badly too! think, during holiday will be going back bahs. ICE saw me and he told me" ARHS! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?! OH MY GOSH!" than he gave me a BIG hug. -.- got girlfriend already still like that. no change. hahahahas! remembering one part, they were performing or having competition. got one part, super nice! clara, 3 girls behind us, one lady beside me and me scream and cheer! everyone keep staring at us. hahahahas! first time man! some part of the show made me thought of [[him]] again. *sigh* my mind just can't get [[him]] out of my ass! =( after everything, went home. *sigh* back home. went to my room and starts crying again. =( Amos messaged me and called me. keep me accompanied and making me laugh without failed. end up, i still cried. *sigh* such a cry baby! blah blah blah. went online. saw my previous post during last year's December till now. guess, i really need [[him]] back badly. but, i guess everything is too late. my knight chatted with me just now. he send me one website and i get to read this;

I believe we had come across many threads on breakups or being jilted.

Please! Please! Please!

Why in the 1st Place when in the very 1st day when you both gets together after so much effort to chase after one another then breakup??

Surely to be there's something wrong with you or her in the 1st place after being together. We humans like to take one another for granted after having each others' company.

Greediness, Feeling of winning and so forth...

Did anyone ask yourself in the 1st place why you wanna chase after the other one?

Cos love @ 1st sight? love secretly for a long time? or what ever reason we can give.

Why in the 1st place you won't put in more effort after being together and ends up telling all the siblings here of how sad and terrible you feels?

If you feels that the someone is you cannot live without?
Try one of the following:
1) Call him/her to nicely talk on the salvage the relationship.
2) Promise that you will not make the same mistake again with sincerity and make sure you never do it again.
3) Weight whether you really love the other party or just sad due to loss that the effort made in the process of chasing the person.
4) Leave for the next one and make sure you dun make the same mistake in the next Relationship Again.
everything really wakes me up. thank you KNIGHT! must thank yeok too! she keep trying her very best to make me feel better. thanks! dearest! i also must thank you! cause, i keep crying non-stop. edwin kor, you're the BEST of all! accompany me since last night till now. THANKS! clara, thanks for accompany me for the whole day. thanks for all the JOKES and FUN(: sarah jie, thank you for everything too! THANKS! ms hannah! thank you so much for calling me and spending time talking on the phone with me. thank you! and of course, not to forget. GOD(: thank GOD. till here. GOOD NIGHT and GOD BLESS(:
boy, i really need you to be in my life.=(