woke up at around 8plus today in the morning just to paint my room(: still haven't finish yet. *sigh* hopefully, can finish everything by sunday. my GOAL. anyway, met up with swee fong first than went to school today. saw her brother. super handsome larhs. hehes(: anyway, don't care. i love him. hahas! lesson ended at 4pm today. don't know why, i love attending 2nd part of my lesson. alot of people say ms janettne's lesson is boring, cause her english very profound. but, i don't think so larhs. maybe, i get used of speaking english already. so, i don't find it weird. anyway, i just don't like this girl. she told me " can you don't use those english words whereby i don't understand? don't act clever." what the fcuk? i used those words is not to show off larhs. that's me okay! you don't understand it's none of my problem kay! jolly well fcuk off. went back home together with swee fong. bought white paint. finally! hehes. reached home, blah blah blah. mum came back. she sets rules which i really hate it alot. i know, it's for our own good. but, have she ever thought of our feelings before?! anyway, i asked her" mum, how am i going to study my private O all by myself?" she replied back" hired tuition teacher very expensive, than she went inside the toilet to bathe" when she come out she told me this" i think i will take 2 jobs bahs. SEE, NEVER WORK HARD IS LIKE THAT!" i was like" what the hell! i got work hard lorhs!" i cried. locked up my room and cried. am i really that useless?! i think so. if i never work hard, i will never even give a damn on going up to NA is my secondary 2 life. when, i entered NA in my secondary 2 life. my mum never say anything or praise me on anything. she just told me this" this is a MUST for you to go NA" *sigh* maybe, she is right. i am stupid. the most stupidest daughter in this world. at first, i really HATE her to the core! but, i can't choose my parents. everything is GOD's plan. i can't complain. anyway, not going to talk about her anymore. thank GOD, damien talked to me. feel much more better now. anyway, tomorrow will be going to piaza hut for lunch! whoo whoo! after that, meeting him and yanling bahs at woodlands library to study! haiis. must work hard. till here. GOOD NIGHT! GOD BLESS(:





i know i am stupid, useless and hopeless.