let's see. hehes. thought of posting earlier ! but ! lazy. hahas. hmms, woke up at around 9PLUS today. used computer as usual. BUT ! when i saw [[him]] online. my heart beat went fast. after that, i tired my very best to put a smile on him. i can't ! i still cried in front of the computer screen. haiis. oh well. i will STOP crying for him once and for all ! cause, my dearies were all very sad. sorry people. after that, brother used the computer already. went for my beauty sleep for like 5 hours?! then, message my dearie to help me buy lunch. cause, he having his yahma class today. hehes. thanks arhs, damien. (: he bought me mac and bubble tea. hehes. free delivery from sun plaza all the way to my house. (: then, he came and slacked at my house till his parents come drive him home. after that, watched tv till 8.30PM. went bathe ! then online till now. (: many things happen ! my baby is sad. ): [[ baby ! you can live without him ! trust me. (: cheer up ! baby ! ]] after that, clement chat with me. hahas. shocked larhs. now ! he my daddy already. hehes. tries his BEST to make me not to think of [[him]] but ! daddy ! i am SORRY ! i can't ! and, i really think that. it's my fault larhs. after that, my " mummy " intro my guys. -.- hahas ! his army friends larhs. as in, one GUY. then, his friend just chat with me on msn. then" mummy " called me and chat on the phone. hahas. feel much more better ever since, mummy's friend chat with me. cause, he everytime make me laugh. but ! i can't forget [[him]]. haiis. yesterday night, i can't stop crying and can't stop blaming God. but, daddy told me something that really wakes me up. haiis. [[ daddy ! i really don't know what to do ! i have been hurt so badly for 3 times ! ]] anyway, not going for my PROM night already. hahas. i have my own reason. (: will be working at the being of DEC. (: messaged thomas daddy already. he says " i will welcome my nu er back. " hehes. thanks arhs daddy ! (: my HOLIDAYS are all PACKED. (: youth camp this coming friday till monday. then, 28th and 30th of nov, meeting my group for that sunday school thingy. 29th of nov, aunty bringing us out. (: then, 1st , 8th , 15th and 22nd of dec. will be having LUNCH DELIVERY. 8th to 11th of dec. will be going KL. 16th dec is GB's last parade. 18th dec will be taking N level results. 28th of dec. celebrating my sister's birthday. 31st of dec. going for count down at orchard. 24 and 25 of dec. will be staying at my aunty's house for CHRISTMAS ! but, heard from mummy that, there will be no celebrating of christmas this year. gosh ! i will be CRYING ! ): hahas. then the rest of my days, i will be working. (: or CHEERLEADING. (: i am always a BUSYWOMAN ! (: God Bless. [[ boy, no matter what are your decision. i will always be there waiting for you. ]]